Shila Amzah and Shahila

Hi everybody. I was cleaning my room when I heard a song called Hitam Manis, which reminds me of our cheeky Bisyri. Comel, I've tried to find it but failed. And oh, guess what, I found this video which rings a bell in my messy head. Eh, I'm very curious. Make it clear for me, is Shila Amzah and Shahila the same person? Rupa macam sama, suara pun lebih kurang. Someone please answer me. Thanks. :)

Shahila - Saat Bahagia

Shila Amzah - Patah Hati

Okay, aku malas update. Faham? XP

Jealousy is The Ugliest Trait

Well hello peeps. It has been like what, two months or so I didn't update my blog. Thanks to this special someone who remind me to update my dusty blog. *Thanks, <3 !

Actually I don't even have any topic that I would like to express it here. Just let my hand do the talking okay? Eversince I got into PALAM, I almost killed my social life either in a good way or the bad way. Obviously if I managed my time pretty wisely I can absolutely update EVERYTHING, everyday. But what to do? I can't.

The exams went so-so only. I can't say much because I know, I wasn't that ready to go through the several hours of brainstorming. Anyhow, I just wish that I can get the best from ALLAH s.w.t. HE knows everything that I should or shouldn't have. When I was in PALAM, I had some problems that I couldn't get rid of since I have to deal with it till I finish my second SEM there. Urgh. It was really mind torturing because personally, I hate being controlled by others. It's my life clearly, and I don't think you are SOMEONE who is responsible of my daily routines there.

I don't know what word could express what I'm trying to say here, but I think dengki or jealousy sounds okay with that. It's like you're controlling people's life as you don't want them to gain more than what you might get. That's just too annoying. It's like you won't let the other person to have what they want in a peaceful way. You tend to question them every little second on what they're doing. asdfghjkl, it's my life. And you can get out of my way. I don't care if you beat my marks during the tests, quizzes or anything, please do the same! I know you might consider my background and try extremely hard to beat me. Aiyo, saya tak kisah. I'll do it my way. Just don't control my life. Don't ask me what I want to do, how or when. argh. I don't have the guts to tell you this too but I think you're kinda selfish. What to do, Assobarul minal iman. Saya seorang pemendam dan pemikir. Haha.

Luahan perasaan sungguh. So, it's proven that everyone has their good and bad side. Before this, I've respected you and now, errr, you answer it yourself. Hmm, on my observation, when we get something way better than others, we can't accept that they might also teach us something good in life. Like we've set up a barrier between them. I know cause I used to be like that. :P

Note to self : Never let anyone control yourself and leave some space for others to give you something that you will need in the future.

p/s : I'll post something better next time. :)

Sincerely,

RF

How To Love - Lil Wayne (cover) Mairak Farizal

OMG. I can't believe that this is my sister. I don't even have the guts to pose in front of the camera, but she does it naturally! Gila la weh. You can listen more on youtube. Here is the link. Well done weh. I'm proud of you!

Mairak Farizal On Youtube - How To Love

Grateful

Hi, hello, ashonte. Assalamualaikum. :)

Ooh, berhabuk sudah bloggie ini. I've been very busy lately plus I'm now active in tumblr. It's easier. Well, got my Test 1 results. OMG, am I the dumbest in class or what? Even if it's a no, I still feel that way. We have geniuses in my class. I repeat, geniuses. Stop it Mai, get a life.

After having my sahur, I switch on my lappy and start doing things that I always do. Then, I googled someone's name. Like, I found her blog. :) Alhamdulillah. I really am a great stalker. Nothing much, I just wanted to know how things are doing in her life. Or his life. Haha. Confusing? Thank you for being confused people. I just love doing this. It's a bit funny how our families are quite similar to each other. And how I am VERY similar to her. Kelakar. Nasib bik dia rockstar macam aku jugak. Haha. So, I can conclude here that he's not like what I imagined. He's way better with a cold heart. COPP MAI, dia tak pandang kau pun. Sapelah kau kan, jangan nak mimpi di siang hari sangat. Relax. Tengok dari jauh cukup. Haha ;)

Regarding the upcoming ELEVATION'S grand dinner/ berbuka puasa in Kuala Lumpur International Hotel, I'm a bit doomed at this moment. Well, my beloved class, D10 in Puncak Alam already planned a trip. Now it's on the edge, The Rumah Anak Yatim thingy was cancelled. And they planned for something new, which I'm not really sure as I don't have any details about it. Pening kan? Deep in my heart, I really hope my class here would plan an event which will be held during the morning till like 3pm or just postpone it. Or we can do it some other time. With that, I'll be totally grateful. But I don't really have the guts to tell them. Pathetic enough right, I know. That's just me. It's the way how I do things. Haha. I will try my best to attend the dinner. Lama gila tak jumpa orang gila ELEVATION. Wajiblah kan aku datang.

To someone that has broke into my heart, don't let me fall if you're not planning to catch me. Or I will build my Great Wall against you.

Love,

RF

Together

I've been searching for this song like for a few days. Now I've found it. Okay, Ne-Yo is so sweet. Would my prince sing this song for me, one day? Haha. Enjoy peeps.

Throwing UP

Hello. Ashonte. :) Few days left till I get back to PALAM. Grr. The stress has already arrived. My assignments like what, 40% complete? Sometimes, knowing I have the time to blog already make me feel stupid. Everybody is busy studying. Geniuses are all over PALAM. That makes me sick! Nak muntah baldi baldi. Pening tengok orang study day and night, 24/7. So,the only solution I have is, do these stuffs my own way. :)

Currently, I'm doing my Maths tutorial. Well, I haven't finished my Biology lab report yet. Plus, my four online Biology assessments. Physics tutorial some more. Okay, just by listing these makes me feel like throwing up, again!

Some of these I got from twitter. Note for myself,

"Learn from your past mistakes, if you don't, you're going to keep on making the same mistakes over & over."

"It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone." -Rascal Flatts,"What Hurts The Most"

Okay the last one sucks. It's okay Mai. When the right time comes, your prince will come. :)

Assobarul minal iman,

RF

Better Days

There's so much I want to say before I click NEW POST. But, right now I'm kinda blur. Currently, studying is like my first thing in an everyday to do list. But, my heart and mind don't really working on that in any way. I'm mentally sick, exhausted. I really hope this mind-torturing programme ends with a great bliss and precious moments for me to cherish in the future.

Lately, discussions were almost day-to-night. Well, I have Physics, Chemistry, Biology, Mathematics, CTU ( like Tasawwur) and Preparation Class for MUET (which I found a bit tiring, the 4-hours-straight lecture). Overall, I'm enjoying my stress here with some kind of entertainment like movies, FB and crazy and retarded friends. Psst, I love you people! :)

For the time being, I really am happy living here, besides having the pressure all around me. I'll be sitting for my Maths and Chemistry test this Wednesday. For Physics and Biology, que sera sera, done last Saturday. Physics, please let me love you. Biology, please Mai, don't mix up the facts. Lot of things were running on my mind lately. Someone got me, head over heels! But that's not the thing I've been messing up my head with, so just chill everyone. To that person, don't do things that would attract me towards you. Pathetic enough that I'm not that kind of girl, you see.

Last but not least, I miss the Zoo of Plutonians so badly. Babes, please let's gather again, like we used to. Goodluck for the upcoming exam people. Pray for our success and insyaALLAH, He will take care of the rest.

Dear Mai, don't let anyone inside, you'd be stuck.

Hoping for a better days to come,

RF